What drives you?

Have you ever asked yourself what drives you? What is it that makes you strive to be something more than mediocre? What makes you want to be great? Or not even great... what makes you want to achieve anything? And then when you answer that question, ask yourself if its really worth anything. Is achievement really useful? Except for that momentary satisfaction you will enjoy, what else is achievement good for? Why not just be in blissful mediocrity?

I always ask myself what is it really that makes me do all the crazy things I do. Why do I have to juggle all of these things when in the end they wouldn't really matter? If I really want to have a pragmatic approach, I wouldn't be doing all of these things. But I do them anyway. Why? Why? Why? and to what end? What do I get?

Don't get me wrong. I like all of the things that I'm doing. I do love having positions in AIESEC. I like having greater accountability and greater impact. But that doesn't stop me from asking these questions.

I've only been VP-F for a week and I have been constantly asking myself this question. My schedule has just become so very very full. I am constantly thinking of the next task. I am constantly think about all the other things I have to juggle. But at the same time, I am glad because as part of the MC I am able to witness how people work. The complexities of the human being have always been interesting to me.

But again I go back... what drives me? I don't know. I just run.