gack. helplessness

i hate being helpless. makes me feel like shit.

Gone

you try so hard to think things can remain the same. but people move. and you know you're gone. it's a whole new ball game. i'm gone. you're gone. gone are the old days.

you just gotta walk forward...

Day 1 - Whee!

Ok ok... i may have spoken too soon. As always...

So day 1... first of all, i have to say that even day -1 was good. I was lying around in Somerset all day and only went out late in the afternoon. Went around Tiong Bahru plaza with Ricky and Melbin, had some food (and burned my tongue) and took care of some house stuff. After that I had a drink with some SCB friends. Doing these little regular things make me feel a lot better actually.

and today I had Day 1... as always me being me, I got lost for a while trying to figure out which elevator to take (apparently you take escalator going up, then take elevator to 38th, then transfer elevator to get to 43rd. phew!). When I got to the office, my direct superior was there and introduced me to a few people. I think that was only when I realized that I really am in a Group role. The team is actually quite multi-cultural (and much older but I'm used to that). I was brought to a meeting for one of the projects and I realized that my role has already reversed. I used to be the person in country screaming at Group. Now, I am seeing what goes on behind the scenes, what efforts need to be done in order to get all these things rolled out to different countries. Overall, I think I'm up for a very interesting ride. Actually, now I'm quite excited to be where I'm at. There's a lot for me to learn, it's in the area of my interest and I think my skill set also fits. Let us see where this ride takes me....

Oh. I twisted my ankle at lunch. haha. accident prone area. Pero ok lang... I think I'm beginning to bounce back. :D

Buyer's remorse

I’m having major buyer’s remorse here. Ok fine. It’s only been a day and I feel this way already? Damn. Whatup care!

So many people have been warning me about the people here. Singabore. Singapore square. Don’t expect them to smile and say hi to you. Ugh. *rolls eyes*

I will get over this. I know that. Work hasn’t even started yet and it’s wrong for me to say things like this. But I’m dreading the adjustment period. Pagod na ako adjust ng adjust. Ano ba. I want to get back to that life when I’m good on all fronts - home, work, play. The practicalities are good here. I think home will be ok because I’m with my brutha and apparently our other flatmate is a Johnnie (Walker) boy. But the work and play???

Can I click on fast forward and get to the happy place already?

New Beginnings

new beginnings are supposed to be great but it's hard to say goodbye to the great life you'd be leaving behind.

Age and Turning Points

I'm going to use this later to blog... For now, I'm just glad that I had a good night's sleep and that I'm off to work at the hour of 8. 

care_uy (5/7/2009 9:28:43 PM): i'm resisting the urge to reply on yuor multiply so i shall reply here while you are hiding offline. Your post makes me feel old. but at the same time I can't help but smile. I used to feel that way but I've come to realize that there's really so much more to come and the freedom that the so called real world brings is exciting. Besides... there are so many old (as in 37 years old) people who are really quite young and you only really get to see that when you start talking to them as equals, even competition, in the office. 

critteti_blahblah (5/7/2009 9:38:37 PM): hahaha, why not reply in multiply  but yeah, haha. old is relative. its just scary how things are always moving and changing so fast. and college is a defining point in one's life. so knowing im nearing the end of it gets me thinking  its like middle ground between being a child, and having to grow up and face reality. hahaha. parang nagblog ako sa message mo  thanks for the insight ket 

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what am I supposed to do when all this is over?

be still

stop.

even just for a few moments.

keep still.

and allow yourself to breathe.

hush.

listen for a moment, to the silence, to yourself.

rest.

it's ok to take a break. 

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i should take a break. Even if it's just one night, I should take a break. Even if this will end soon, I should take a break. 

tralalalala

excited for AIESEC in 2009.

Getting ready to say goodbye.

putting in finishing touches to transition plan.

figuring out what to next. 

finances need to be fixed.

***No surprise that my top two strengths are strategic and futuristic.

tralalalalalalala

i want to buy a new hard drive.

sobrang sabog ng audio ni JJ (Just Junior *tada handpose*)

***hmm... wala lang just had to pause.

w_ _w!!!!

February Madness

wah! 

I'm coming to realize that I have waaaaaaaaay too many things on my plate right now.

It's not so bad really. I just need to finally get things organized rather than the haphazard, whirlwind approach I have to most things. To be fair to myself, I'm not really that disorganized. I just a) don't say no to anything (READ: kaladkarin) and b) I don't really write everything down in one organized list. 

Ok... so what are the things that I need to get done:

1.) Move out of my place and move in to the new one (should be done by Sunday)

2.) Fix my Italian visa requirements (should be done by Monday)

3.) Get this book project going... and making sure that things are running even if i am away. 

4.) IPM preparations 

            - GN Plans

            - CY Plans

            - Chuchu stuff (i.e. cultural eck eck, T-shirt printing, etc)

5.) March plans

            - NEB

            - Enderun acquaintance party

            - AIESEC Phes BOA meeting

            - Transition planning

            - H4TF seminar?

            - Alumni newsletter

            - and a bunch of other AIESEC plans

6.) SCB Chuchu

            - iBanking BSP

            - iBanking in general

            - eChannels roll out

            - Turn over to Andrew

7.) Packing for Italy

Wah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How do I do finish all this in 4 days? 

hwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhirlwind. ack.