always amazed
I've been bloghopping again. That's been my ostrich move of choice lately. What's an ostrich move? It's a stupid idea I got from a friend. Ostriches, in times of danger or whenever they panic, bury their heads in the ground. Stupid birds yes but they do make a beautiful metaphor for procrastination.
anywho.. back to what i was saying. I've been reading the blogs of AIESECers and seeing how they think and what their experiences have been like. One thing I noticed is that so many of them are so immersed in their AIESEC life and they feel they are actually making a difference. Sadly, I don't think that the same is true for me at all. Being in the MC should make me feel like I'm touching people's lives or doing something significant. I did when I was among the facilitators of NLDS... well, maybe I did. But now, I really just can't think of anything good that I am contributing. AIESEC, at this point, has become a thorn that I just want to remove but can't or won't. Supposedly, there are a lot of opportunities out there offered in AIESECland. But, c'mon! I have to get real. Economics is an issue.
But I'm still glad whenever I read these blogs because I feel a push to go beyond my limits. I've always been one to move away from my comfort zone. I'm very good at establishing comfort zones and really enjoying my time. But after a while, I get bored and I constantly need a change of pace, a challenge. Reading blogs allows me to see the possibilities.. the new perspectives... the challenges I have not yet experienced.
AIESECers will always amaze me. I've never felt that it was an international org until APX 2006. I want to go to india but i can't afford it. Oh well... If i decided to stay in the MC for another year, I just might end up going to another conference. Whee! let's hope for that.
anywho.. back to what i was saying. I've been reading the blogs of AIESECers and seeing how they think and what their experiences have been like. One thing I noticed is that so many of them are so immersed in their AIESEC life and they feel they are actually making a difference. Sadly, I don't think that the same is true for me at all. Being in the MC should make me feel like I'm touching people's lives or doing something significant. I did when I was among the facilitators of NLDS... well, maybe I did. But now, I really just can't think of anything good that I am contributing. AIESEC, at this point, has become a thorn that I just want to remove but can't or won't. Supposedly, there are a lot of opportunities out there offered in AIESECland. But, c'mon! I have to get real. Economics is an issue.
But I'm still glad whenever I read these blogs because I feel a push to go beyond my limits. I've always been one to move away from my comfort zone. I'm very good at establishing comfort zones and really enjoying my time. But after a while, I get bored and I constantly need a change of pace, a challenge. Reading blogs allows me to see the possibilities.. the new perspectives... the challenges I have not yet experienced.
AIESECers will always amaze me. I've never felt that it was an international org until APX 2006. I want to go to india but i can't afford it. Oh well... If i decided to stay in the MC for another year, I just might end up going to another conference. Whee! let's hope for that.
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Happy V-day! More like Singles Awareness since a lot of people are online on Yahoo!Messenger. As for me, Mogu is my Valentine. Mogu's this Japanese stuff toy I got from a friend. He's soft, cuddly, and is somehow able to hug me back with his long arms. Spent V-day in such a pathetic manner... Went to BPI to take an exam for employment - that was 4 hours long. I passed and I got an interview. (yey!) then I went home and watched sappy movies while doing my homework. I watched the Notebook, 50 First Dates, and 40 Year Old Virgin. What a sap! The Notebook made me cry again. It's a beautiful love story. My favorite scene is Allie is just about to leave Noah again and he tries to convince her to stay. Aww... nice explanation on love...
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